Phony

Brought a rookie home
Couldn't get it goin'
So we just gave up
Gave myself away
To another, no

I can't get enough
Am I sick or phony?
I don't really know me
You can call my bluff
Am I twisted, lonely?
Think the world doth owe me
So I hurt the ones, yeah

The ones that mean the most to me
The ones that feed the family
'Cause I've never had a healthy thing
I've always been a solo bitch

(Chemical imbalance or just some deeper shit?)

And you ride, ride till the end of days
And you try, even when you are not okay
And you mean everything you do
And you mean everything you say
And you want everything to prove
That you are not the one to blame
That we are cool but are we cool?

(Repentance on my lips, that's just the way it is)

Awaken in distress
Help like SOS
Feel it drain my soul
Could it be in my blood
Is this ancestral mud
An extreme ebb and flow?

I dig my hands in earth
I quench my body's thirst
Add fire to the core
Don't give into temptation
Mind is always racing
And I'm searching for

Uniderstand, a little hope
A plan I can manage, so I can manage
My highs and lows

(I didn't ask for this, I just want you to know)

And you ride, ride till the end of days
And you try, even when you are not okay
And you mean everything you do
And you mean everything you say
And you want everything to prove
That you are not the one to blame
That we are cool but are we cool?

And you ride, ride till the end of days
And you try, even when you are not okay

Brought a rookie home
Couldn't get it goin'
So we just gave up
Gave myself away
To another, no

I can't get enough
Am I sick or phony?
I don't really know me
You can call my bluff
Am I twisted, lonely?
I just think I'm hungry
For some proper love